“I am more depressed about working with people who always seem unsatisfied with everything.”
Karly Mullin’s story
I used to love my job so much. I still do. I am an activity aide at a nursing home. I love my residents, they bring out so much joy in me. But I feel lately the job can be exhausting working with those who have high dementia. I am more depressed about working with people who always seem unsatisfied with everything. Especially my manager, I feel like I do everything wrong and there is no appriecation or awknowledgement of hard work or recognition of taking initiative. I am having a difficult time motivating myself to even be at work. I can’t stand it, I feel like I might blow up with sadness and shut down comepeletely. Also, there is absolutely no understanding of mental illness at my work (and honestly probably not at any other work place). Which makes it difficult to communicate how I feel and if I need a day off to be in my own head. I constantly feel guilty fr whong at work and not being myself… I feel like there is no understanding or empathy for the physical/ mental pain I am in all the time. I do my best, I work hard but I’m putting on a mask more and more now, to hide my sadness. To hide my darkness at my back of my mind. I’m trying to be okay…. I just feel like im on the outside looking in at my life. I may need a change of job.